i hope everything from yesterday is pretty much worked out.other than why not tell me you have been overthinking. or why not tell me your life has been miserable. you can write it in a blog for the world to see, but you cant tell me??and i asked why you started crying saturday. you said no reason. but if youd rather keep it to yourself i wont say anything about it. other than right now obviously. but i hope you did good on that test.im thinking you will do good bc you always say your not going to do good and you do. you are smart. so you do good on everything. your just lucky like that i guess.im super hungry. the bell rings in three little minutes. i dont know if i can last though ha. my tummy is doing somthing a little differint than normal but it happens to the best. i hope your tummy is feeling better. im pretty ready for saturday. but sorry so short. i love you sugar muffin.
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Rebuddle:
Chad, I didn't know why I cried. I knew that I was over thinking,but I wasn't sure what about. I was just so overwhelmed by your hug. It felt so nice to just lie there with you and not worry about anything whatsoever for the first time. I knew if I tried explaining than I would (first off) ruin the peace and beauty of that moment for me. and (second) not know what to say or where to begin; it was hopeless. I know that you know I'm constantly worrying all the aching time, it's who I am. I won't stop until whatever I'm worried about is completely passed over. That hasn't happened yet too often. However, I haven't been completely miserable. I've just simply been very much confused. (The world doesn't see my blog so I don't mind what I write; it's kind of like my diary). . Yeah. Yes. I'm just not sure about a lot of things right now. I don't want to say nothing concerning you, because most everything that I'm worried about is about you. Only because everything in my life has something to do with. I'm just not positive where I am at with the whole understanding process. I love you, but I do not know how to secure that love with a healthy foundation and whatnot. It's time that I grew up, it is. I didn't do too hot on that test, but I didn't do too cold either. It's mutual. and.. I'm exhausted. Thus, goodbye. -AE.
