lone·ly:
1.affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
2.destitute of sympathetic or friendly companionship, intercourse, support, etc.: a lonely exile.
3.lone; solitary; without company; companionless.
4.remote from places of human habitation; desolate; unfrequented; bleak: a lonely road.
5.standing apart; isolated: a lonely tower.
It's shown on many billboards, signs in the hallways of high schools, notebooks, cutsie school supplies: "Stand apart, be different." Zilch times did I see "Warning: this may lead to loneliness." Else wise, I might have decided to take up my mat and slumber with compliance. Loneliness. Loneliness. Loneliness. The less drab it becomes, as it lingers off the tongue. Lown-lee-ness. A certain boy in my first period pronounces it with a draw Loan-leh-nest. Everything becomes humor once spoken with a hick lingo. I would rather be lame than to join the wagon. No, thanks. I'll continue saying nine as none and ten as tin. Hm.
Lately, I've been hearing voices. Now comes the "uh oh, she's a loon" card, I know. It is absurd, I wouldn't want to explain it to any given Joe. What shall I do? Ring up Doctor Donnie and say, "Listen, can you hear her? She is taunting me." I don't enjoy whiteness. If I wasn't a fruit loop before, I would be afterwards, due to the lack of imagination and color. It's a blank canvas that my hands would pointlessly itch to cover. If it is caused by loneliness, would sending me away to an empty room be the solution? I think not. Silence is key, or actually I've heard it was knowledge. Knowledge to be silent. Perhaps that's the reason that the Silent Game was always so effective as a child. Points, mother.
Loneliness. Sometimes, it's what strives us to be more. Sometimes, it was condones us to be less. Sometimes, though, it makes you sick.
Sick? Yes. And I never thought bulimic girls felt loved anyways.
